Sunday, 31 August 2014

Coping

Coping.

Whilst all alone and dark outside,
is when my colours show.
It's so hard to sleep, Just running thoughts,
It's when I feel so low.
My jobs they seem to save me,
from the sadness deep inside.
I feel alive, I feel myself,
Not remembering what I hide.
Am I over exaggerating?
I just simply don't understand.
It seems the people I can trust,
can be counted on one hand.
I've found my ways of coping,
with some accepted and some not.
Without these ways, it's clear to me,
I would of mentally lost the plot.

August 2014
Jordon-Olivia Gee 

Friday, 16 May 2014

Life Experience

Life Experience.

I try and act all normal,
And from reality i choose to hide.
It's my only way of coping,
Instead of expressing what's inside.
I've become so very repetative,
In these words i've cautiously wrote.
It's something i feel isnt relevant,
Lifes so like a rocking boat. 
I'm too old to feel so down,
Always feeling like such a void.          
I have no one to speak too,
Feeling constantly paranoid.            
Its become so perfectly clear
That The feelings ive hid for years.
Have built up for way too long,
And are causing all the tears.      
Its doesnt help at all,
That i'm really struggling to sleep.
Its the time i find i think alot,
And at times it can be rather deep.
So that's just a minor insight
Of feelings people may feel       
So now my aim is to be there
To listen, advise and heal.

February 2014
Jordon-Olivia Gee